I feel Fierce...
March 18, 2018 • Leave a Comment
I've nearly given up on photography so many times recently mainly due to worrying about my obsessive nature.
A friend said this week, "your like a sledgehammer.. do you ever bloody stop?" as he turfed me out of his office again. It hit home to be honest and worried me. The need to win or be the best has always been a nagging part of me, driven or obsessive.. it's hard to tell.
I never thought I was creative, I thought I was a "builder". At work I build teams, in the past I've ran paintball teams, I've built a worldwide gaming clan, built websites... always with the "building", how big can we make it?, how far can we go? how much money can we make?. Then photography happened for the second time in my life.
I've fallen in love with the camera, but more so with the creating of images. Over the past five years this passion has come with a price, much soul searching about my photography. Is it photography or art? I'm not really used to creative soul searching like trained art people (the wife). Apparently it's all part of a process.. who knew?
When I can't see the path or "do peoples heads in" with this mad passion.. then it seems easier to give in, stop and put the energy somewhere else.
Then someone say's one little innocent comment on their photograph from a shoot, about how the picture makes them feel.. "I FEEL FIERCE".
"I FEEL FIERCE".. Victoria wrote under her picture on Facebook, and I filled up inside. How can I give up if I can help one person feel so good about themselves? Three words that saved my photography..
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